Love

I met my true love at the age of 16. First love didn’t mean that we have to date. I met a lot of people before him but no one make me felt the love like he did. Let’s call him “A”. Me and A never get to date each other but I love him I truely love him. He’s the one who teach me love and I can’t forget about him. A seem to like me at first but then he lose interest in me and I hurt so bad after knowing it but that’s ok. He’s 2 year older than me. A never get out of my mind I miss him so bad. Still have his number saved, remember every detail about him even the way he talk and his voice. As long as he’s happy I can watch him from far away.

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2025-08-14

What I did, I do and I’ve done.

I asked you to move on and find someone who would give u the love that you deserve. U did. I promise that we still be friend afterwards. And I keep our promise. Lastly, you have found your happiness as my will for you has been fulfilled. Everything goes as planned, but why I’m still hurt?

2025-08-14

Old notes#2

Number 11 becomes my fav cos it’s the time I keep checking if you’re still awake like I am, if you are thinking of me like I am; it shows that I still care for you even before or after that 11 number, or maybe it’s just an excuse that I make to lie to myself that only when the short and long hand of the clock point to 11 is the time I think about you, when actually I’m thinking about you every hour which I can barely say the word hour cos every second seems so long let alone an hour, when actually I’m waiting for the time to arrive at 11 again so that I can lie to myself again that I only think of you at this 11:11. #lovefailed

2025-08-14

Untitled

Is my hint not clear enough or you are just not into me? Are we talking or you just replying my text? Are we gonna talk again if I don’t start the conversation? Do I ever cross your mind?

2025-08-14

How u call it mature love?

Admin please comfirm this. Idk if this is so call mature love or love with a business man. My bf is a business man and also hard working man. I don't know if y'all believe in zodiac sign but he is gemini. 1st, let talk about chat, as i count the time we had a chat we only spend 40mn about personal stuff, if we had a long convo it about our work or bs. 2nd, the time we spend with each other outside most of the time also relate to work, we sit far from each other like a stranger or normal worker, but some told me he shown me respect to not touch me outside cause elder will look at me in discuss way if he does that. 3rd, he offen go to province or he so focus on his work he will ignore me for a day or more, like these days he called me he went to kpc 2 days ago then we didn't talk till now. Is this what u call mature? Is this love? I'm so confuse, cause i used to asked him for break up n he ignore me like nth had happened.

2025-08-14

Healing

Although my ex-boyfriend cheated on me , I’ve learned to move on without having anyone new. Deep down inside, this process is literally miserable since he’s the only one on my mind. After 2 months of breakup, I can say i don’t utterly heal from this heartbreak , but my inner wound has been gradually healing day by day to the point where I finally say I’m better off without him . To all the heart-broken girls out there, don’t pressure yourself. Moving on is not easy as some people say , but one day, pain that you have tried to handle will be finally withdrawn. Embrace yourself as much as possible. Self-love is a must.

2025-08-14

What should I do next?

I’m sorry but I don’t freaking know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether he has feeling for me or he is just being nice. I don’t know whether to move on or keep holding into this one-sided love. I want to move on before I fall for him harder than this, but the love I have for that man right now is already deeper, deeper than you can ever imagine. I don’t want to be friend with someone I love, also I can’t accept the fact that one day we’ll be stranger again. A man who I’ve never expected I’d get closed to, a man who I’ve never expected that I’d fall for this hard, a man who I’m really happy to be around…

2025-08-14

Your supporter

I will support you in everything you do which also includes your decision in leaving me. It's not what I want, but if that's what you want and it will make you happy, I'm willing to suffer alone. please be really really happy, so that I know I made a right decision.

2025-08-14

I thought I was special to you. I'm such an idiot :)

"You deserve to be treated like the way you treated me. I'm sorry I can't treat you like that."