Same shit different day.
17.July.2022 Asking myself the same thing every single day "should I move on?" But everytime I see your notification pop up on my screen it always lit up the glimpse of hope inside me that one day we will be together.
៤-៥ឆ្នាំដែលយើងទាក់ទងគ្នាយ៉ាងល្អ និងឈានទៅរកថ្ងៃពិសេសទៅហើយ! .....អូនចាប់ផ្តើមសុំបងបែកមួយរយះ ក្រោយមានវត្តមានគេ! គេចូលមកជិតអូនត្រឹមមិនដល់៣ថ្ងៃផង គេហ៊ានប្រាប់ឲ្យអូនបែកបង(ក្នុងក្លឹប) អូនដឹងគោលបំណងគេទៅហើយ ម្តេចអូនបើកដៃឲ្យគេ ហើយអ្នកដែលឆាតទៅគេមុនក៏ជារូបអូន អូនបើកដៃឲ្យគេមកក្បែរខ្លួនអូន ទាំងអង្គុយជិត និងគ្រប់រូបភាព (សួរថាបងឈឺប៉ុណ្ណាមនុស្សដែលយើងស្រលាញ់បំផុត និងឲ្យតម្លៃបំផុតបែរជាធ្វើបែបនេះ) រួចហើយអូនឆាតប្រាប់BFFអូនថាគេ treatអូនបានល្អជាងបង...etc! ចុម🤷🏻 គេចូលមកគៀកអូនស្នឹទ្ធដាក់អូនដល់ថ្នាក់បងប្រច័ណ្ឌ ក៏ចាត់ទុកថាបងចិត្តមិនទូលាយកើតជារឿងទៅវិញ ក្រោយមកក៏ប្រាប់ថាបែកគ្នា១រយះ នឹងមិនមានទាក់ទងជាមួយអ្នកណាក្នុងអំលុងពេលនឹង ទាំងដែលអូនឆាតជាមួយគេព្រឹកទល់យប់ចូលគេងទៅទៀត (ទុកបងចោលក្រោមមូលហេតុក្នុងពេលសិក្សា ទាំងដែលអូនដើរដាច់យប់ញាំស្រាសប្បាយសឹងរៀងរាល់រាត្រី 🙂) បងមិនដែលនឹងធ្វើបែបនឹងដាក់អូនម្តងណាឡើយ. (រឿងខ្លះមិនមែនបងមិនដឹង តែបងធ្វើភ្លឺចាំមើលគម្រោងអូន) ម្លោះទៀតសោធ ថ្ងៃចុងក្រោយបំផុត ដែលអូនអនុញាត្តិឲ្យអ្នកដ៏ទៃមកដៀលបងកប់ៗមាត់ទៅវិញថាបងមនុស្សមិន...@#£€ etc ទៅវិញ (ចំនុចរសើបនេះបងលាក់ទុករហូតមិនប្រាប់នរណាសូម្បីក្រុមគ្រួសារបង ព្រោះបងខ្លាចពួកគាត់ស្អប់រូបអូន ទាំងដែលពួកគាត់ស្គាល់អូនជាក្មេងស្រីល្អម្នាក់) បងសែនសោកស្តាយដែលអូនបណ្តោយឲ្យគេប្រមាថបង ដែលបងតែងតែផ្តល់តម្លៃ កត្តិយសដល់អូន និងក្រុមគ្រួសារអូន. ពេលនោះអូនខល់បងទាំងស្រវឹងនិយាយលែងដឹងអីទៅហើយ អូនមិនមែនមនុស្សស្រីទន់ភ្លន់ដែលបងធ្លាប់ស្គាល់នោះទេ... បងស្រឡាំងកាំងពេលនឹកឃើញដល់ទង្វើទាំងឡាយដែលអូនបានធ្វើមកលើបង....... បងអង្វរអូនគ្រប់បែបយ៉ាងព្រោះបងនៅស្រលាញ់ ថ្ងៃចុងក្រោយបងក៏គោរពតាមការសម្រេចចិត្តរបស់អូនដែលអូនចង់បែក (បេះដូងបងស្ទើអស់ឈាមរត់ទៅហើយនាថ្ងៃនុង) ហាហាហ បងខ្សោយណាស់មែនទេដែលអន់ចំពោះមនុស្សស្រីដែលបងស្រលាញ់ 😅😂 បងល្អឬមិនល្អចំពោះអូន ទុកឲ្យពេលវេលាជាអ្នកចាត់ចែងទៅចុះ 🤍 ជូនពរអូនសំណាងល្អ នឹងជាមួយអ្នកថ្មី ឬដៃគូណាថ្មីឲ្យមានសុភមង្គល. នឹកគិតសព្វៗទៅ ខ្ញុំល្ងង់ណាស់មែនទេដែលដឹងរឿងគ្រប់យ៉ាងហើយ ក៏ចាំមើលគេធ្វើយ៉ាងរំភើយ😂😂😂 របៀបថាក្បត់ដោយប្រយោល រួចក៏ប្រាប់បងថាមិនក្បត់អ្វីនោះទេ 😂 វាជាមេរៀនដ៏ល្អសម្រាប់បងដែលស្គាល់អូនកន្លងមក ថាមនុស្សចេះប្រែប្រួលស្ទើរមិនជឿរដោយបរិស្ថានរាប់អានជុំវិញខ្លួន. 🤌🏼💁🏻
17.July.2022 Asking myself the same thing every single day "should I move on?" But everytime I see your notification pop up on my screen it always lit up the glimpse of hope inside me that one day we will be together.
After texting with you for so often, I realize that I have a good feeling toward you. I always get exited chatting with you, getting the butterflies in my stomach whenever you compliment me. But things go wrong when you give me an confused feelings, sometimes you make me feel like you want to chat with me and sometimes you don’t. Sometimes you make me feel like you have feeling for me too, yet you make me feel like you don’t wanna give me hope. The jokes you said, make me feel happy, hopeful and confused. Am I the one who get it wrong or you are the one who make me confused?
Can I expose my ex on this page ? So that I can warn other girls…?
One of the hardest things that I’m doing right now is letting go of a person whom I never thought I would do. It’s the best for myself to be able to heal. I wrote my stories here probably a few times of how I love that person but in the end we’re just friends. I still have feelings for her and I don’t think I would ever lose those feelings, but the thing is I’m moving forward. I don’t stay in the same old place with the wonderful/painful memories. Honestly, she’s the first person that I’ve loved this much and I even told her that. Still, I need to accept the fact that it’s not gonna work and our connection can only be “best friend”. She told me that she met someone and she kinda loves that him too. So yeah. Sometimes you miss the memories and the times that you had spent with them but not the person themselves.
I saw a lot of confession is all about people ghosting tho... And you guys are shy to ask them. Well, to me, I had been in that situation (I am the ghost). The problem was that, I didn't know what happen around me back then. I felt the urge to be isolated from other people and just to stay alone. I bottled up my emotions all alone. Well my advice is to ask that person if there's sth you could help. :)
I’ve been questioning my life lately and I try freaking hard to become the best version of myself everyday. Living away from home without having my parents by my side is something I’ve never done before and I admit that my life has changed so much since the day I left home. I’m constantly teary knowing how much they worry about me. They are the ONLY reason why I keep going and still living this freaking life. If it weren’t for them, my existence wouldn’t have existed until now. I admit that I appreciate where I am now. I truly am! But at some points, I feel like the life I’m living is currently draining me day by day. I cannot see the purpose of life and it stressed me out whenever I think of the word ‘future’. It’s so dark and I cannot see anything. My anxiety keeps telling me the worst scenarios because I know that I cannot be the one everyone expects me to be. I might look normal but deep down inside I’m just a sad soul. No one knows how hard it is for me to survive each day. Having anxiety and insecurities about everything. Being a professional overthinker who worry even at a little thing and always wake up tired from a vivid dream… I don’t want to live like this but it’s not like I have a choice. The more I grow up, the more I start questioning my life and wondering why I live like this. I’m turning 19 next month and my only wish is that I can survive til I’m 20… -J
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
I used to be mad. I used to look back and wonder where I went wrong, and took all the blame. I wondered why would you ghost me like I never mattered. One day our friendship was flourishing–filled with laughter and late-night text messages and venting–the next, it was gone. I used to wished that our long/ funny conversation will come back. It hurts to know that we used to be so close, and now it’s like I don’t know you at all. I feel as though you don’t want me anymore. What do we all talk about, do we talk about past things to catch up on, or do we just act like no time has passed?. We’re not as close as we were before. There are days when I am so happy and that the person I want to talk to you is you. I want to tell you every detail, the entire story, and I want you to listen. There are other days where that high isn’t there when I feel low, and I just want you there to listen or to talk about anything else. Those days are when I miss you the most.There are some secrets that I could never tell another person, but I can easily tell you. Some days I wonder if we will ever be that kind of friends again. Sure, I look back and still smile on the times that we have had, the moments we had shared, the jokes, the laughter that filled our friendship. I have no idea how you feel about our friendship right now. But I am here, in case you make that step back. I am also here, wishing nothing but the best for you: laughter, that all your dreams come true, and all the happiness in the world. I’d like to let you know that our friendship meant everything to me. Thank you for the good memories that you leave behind. I hope wherever you are, you’re happy with yourself. I hope you have found peace with your problems–the people who had hurt you in the past. I hope you finally find something you love and let it consume you. I hope you find a guy who truly treats you the way you deserve.