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So how are you? Do you feel better now? Do you miss me like I miss you or do you hate me?
Most people can be loved by somebody in this world. It just doesn't mean that you're going to be together. But there's somebody out there for everyone.
So how are you? Do you feel better now? Do you miss me like I miss you or do you hate me?
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i hope one day youβll realize i did truly care for u. i promise ure gonna miss me being there. putting up with u, refusing to give up on u. youβre gonna regret everything youβve done to me, including all the damage youβve caused. and someday, youβll turn back and i wonβt be waiting for u any longer. i might have been worthless to u, but youβll miss me when i become priceless to another.
Why don't you just say it if you no longer want to talk. It hurts me but Itβs probably easier for either of us and you have to leave me alone and waiting for your replies for hours or even days. Itβs so exhausted to question my own worth. Just spill it out and letβs move on.
Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didnβt fall in love with anyone else. Itβs because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is β death both sideβxD. And yeah at the time heβs the only person that I chatted with, told him howβs my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we havenβt chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.
I lost my friend several months ago. she was someone I talked to every day and even asked for advice. and we met when weβre studying in Australia. It still feels unreal every time I see her photos with a smiley face, I still have difficulty believing sheβd do it. how can a girl who is always smiling dealing with mental illness and nobody knows about it. There were no warning signs. she is a person I wished I could be more like (not jealousy, Iβm just admire her). Happy, creative, smart, perfect family status, beautiful smiles. Always upbeat and looking out for others. She texted me a day earlier before it happened. I shouldβve talked to her that day a little moreβ¦why didnβt I. The way it happened was shocking. I still wonder if I could have helped her that day. It's almost like it never happened because it just doesn't seem real, it was so unexpected. As I'm typing this its just actually hitting me again that she is really gone. but looking back, yeah, there were some signs because I accidentally saw her searching about medicine but she said it was just research projects. the guilt in my guts is overwhelming. I also noticed that she was extremely exhausted and kinda isolated herself from anyone earlier that month but I was pretty naive on top of that. It really bothers me now, because she was obviously giving some signs but I was too stupid to realize what was going on. I LOVE YOU, S P.S If someone is popping up in your mind while reading this please donβt ignore them and checking on them every chance you get as the last chance you will ever have may have been yesterday. Be there when you can. Even if its just checking up on someone. If you care about someone, let them know. If someone reaches out to you, even a little... be there for them. You never know when they are in their final moment of desperation. Not everyone will have the same signs. Some wonβt have any at all. If you suspect something at all... just let them know you care and that if they ever need to talk, that you are there for them. That they are never a burden, not to you. Even if they never open up to you, just hearing that can make a world of difference. And if you are struggling yourself, please open up to someone. Anyone. Even if its someone you don't know that well. There is nothing wrong if youβre going to met therapist.
Remember there always pieces of you inside me , always . You the sweetest purest person i ever met you . I'm glad i having you as mine . I just need some space that i can fix everything for us and eps for you . Ask myself a question how can i can take care of you? how to make you feel safe in here ? I still want you . lovely around here without you . I still see your charming smile around me thanks babe take care good care of yourself love you
Iβm thinking of dying again. 22-04-22 -khoy mouygech