Throw back to yr 1, I think I had the most beautiful moment crushing on someone. She's my first love, I'm just not lucky enough to make her mine. Plus I crushed on her knowing she got a boyfriend. We became close, probably because of our personalities match and had alot of things in common. I think she is a type I always ask for. We got the same age, but she is so much more mature. She cared and noticed every little thing about me. She always make me feel special. Sometimes, we hold hands in the mall and during class. She used to called me her soulmate. We are lovebird in our class. I kept rejecting, saying no when our classmates talked about us as a couple.(inside, smiling and wishing it was true) xD I really miss me being with her. I miss reading book, paying attention in class, finishing my homework, learning new things, improving my grammar, caring my own health, going to gym, eating healthy food, being kind to other, fullfiling my commitment, keep things under control, keeping my promise, calming down my anger, being a reasonable person, being okay to say sorry. I miss being a better person, just to catch her attention. I miss trying to be a person that come in package. Being an understanding, a sweet, responsible, respectful and a romantic boyfriend, that she always wanted. I remembered days, the first thing I do when I got school is looking for her white scoopy and pink helmet. Everytime I saw her motor at the parking lot, I was so happy going to class, knowing I'm going to see her in any minute soon. Till today, with a little pain in my heart, such a warming one, I still can say I'm glad not telling her about my feeling toward her. We are now still friend, kinda close as before. I got a girlfriend, and sometimes I run to her when I fight with my girlfriend. She's still the same, being an understanding one, giving advice and comfort with care. I'm glad, staying in her life in a position that I able to hear everything about her, everything she wanna talk and going through. I'm glad being a shoulder she can cry on, playing her hair, stabbing her head gently anytime I want to. I am now graduated 3yr already. If I can keep it this long time, I really wish this can be forever. I think I am now being selfish. The thought of losing her is really scary. PS: I am gay.
I still love you even we are apart for a long time. I’m still holding up to you. I want us to get back together again just like how brave I texted you, but the word afraid appears every time I think about it. I afraid that we might end up not talking to each other again. I’m glad that we are friend for now even I know this kind of friend just a title.
Have you ever felt a wind of change? Have you ever noticed that one moment when you are all-in to do something for that someone? Have you ever thought of the one that changed you? I have been asking myself the same questions overtime. I always asked myself why; why did I have to change my own characteristics just to get along with someone else? And the only answer I could think of is “she is the one”. She is the one who taught me patience, the one whom I pledge my loyalty to, and the one whom I care for the most. I recalled that moment when one of my closest circle ask me: “… do you have someone in your eyes?”, and I responded “Oh yes! Her… the one from several years ago.” That response sent shockwave to the rest of my circle. They immediately questioned me of the progress I made. My answer disappointed them a lot. “It is a long story,” I said. Why haven’t I move on? The only reason I haven’t move on is that I could not find someone else who possess those traits of hers. It is true that I am a flirtatious young adult who fond of girls, especially those in my age or older, but when it comes to the real one — the first lady — I would stick to that girl. Stupid, right? I realise and admit that I usually fell in love at first sight. A lightning storm that usually ended up in a mess. And it has been years now, and we never talked, we never engaged in a long conversation, although time gave us many good opportunities to start things up. At some point, I even think that she hates me… like… she hates me so much that when we see each others, our eyes avoid one another, trying to avoid any contact. Things went back to the ICE AGE, when coldness and ego took over our respective selves. Even our zodiac signs are completely opposite from each other. Maybe I was right to avoid her? Or maybe it was just a new beginning? Or maybe it was a hint to something mysterious? Who knows! So what did she do? She dragged me out of my old self, my arrogant self. I left my assertive way of life, the aggressive behaviour behind, and embraced change. By looking back at my own past, I saw my old self fallen in an endless pit of darkness. Thanks to her presence, I walked on this path. Oh… and she was also the one who indirectly encouraged everyone else to discover beyond the boundary. But that does not mean every one of my activity is done on her behalf. It is a big NO. I could say that she is a guardian angel, who is loved by many of her inner circle, respected by many others, and adored by someone like me. My message would be: Let’s find a good time to talk this out. We have lots of things to catch up to. Shan’t we? And even though, we grow apart our inner little children call out for one another. You are not alone.
Fall in love with introverts is hard. Even you may know where they study or work, you probably can’t see them often. Even you may know their real name, they probably use fake name on social media. You can try stalking their friends or family members’ accounts but it doesn’t guarantee a success. They may not even have social media at all, or probably use a fake ones that not even their circle can know. They basically live in a cave and are probably carving art on the wall right now. Therefore, if you find any attractive introverts outside, don’t wait to get home and search for them on the internet. You may not see them touching grass for another months. So you should take a risk, approach them and don’t let the chance slips away (like me). If you’re lucky, they may let you hear their voices or more…adopt them. So, be brave guys, be brave but don’t be pushy (‘cause I’ve been there and it didn’t work). 🥴🥴🥴
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I’m wondering when you blocked someone, is it because you hate them or you want to move on easier? Answer please. Thank you.
Today is a good day.
ពួកយើងបានស្គាល់គ្នារយៈពេលបីខែហើយក៏ចាប់ផ្ដើមជជែកគ្នាលេងពេលដែលគាត់មានបញ្ហាអ្វីគាត់តែងតែមកនិយាយជាមួយខ្ញុំហើយពួកយើងក៏បានជួយគ្នាដោះស្រាយបញ្ហាមិនយូរប៉ុន្មានពួកយើងក៏បានក្លាយជាសង្សារនិងគ្នាតែងតែនិយាយនឹកគ្នាគ្រប់ពេល បន្ទាប់មកពួកយើងក៏បានជួបគ្នាគាត់ជាមនុស្សពូកែលេងសើចច្រើនពេលនៅក្បែរគ្នាគាត់តែងតែធ្វើឲ្យខ្ញុំរីករាយគាត់តែងតែលេងហ្គីតានិងច្រៀងអោយខ្ញុំស្តាប់រហូតពេលនោះគាត់បានធ្វើអោយស្គាល់អារម្មណ៍រីករាយម្ដងទៀតតែបន្ទាប់ពីយេីងទាក់ទងគ្នាបានមួយខែខ្ញុំបានដឹងថាគាត់នៅនឹកសង្សាចាស់របស់គាត់ពេលនោះខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ភ្ញាក់ផ្អើលណាស់ទាំងមិនដឹងថាគាត់មានគេទេតែគាត់បាននិយាយថាគាត់បានបែកគ្នាហើយតែគាត់នៅនឹកគេម្តងៗទេគាត់ក៏សុំទោសខ្ញុំសុំឱកាសខ្ញុំក៏បានផ្ដល់ឱកាសឲ្យគាត់ព្រោះខ្ញុំគិតថាប្រហែលមិនអីទេគេគ្រាន់តែជាអតីតមួយសប្ដាហ៍ក្រោយមកក៏មានរឿងនេះកេីតឡើងទៀតគាត់បាន Mention សង្សារចាស់របស់គាត់ខ្ញុំក៏បានឃើញហើយខ្ញុំស្ទើរតែមិនជឿថាវាកេីតឡើងទៀតពេលនោះខ្ញុំបាននិយាយថាអត់អីទេបេីបងស្រលាញ់គេនឹកគេមកទៅរកគេមកវិញទៅគាត់បានឆ្លើយតបថាបងអត់ទៅវិញទេបងស្រលាញ់អូនគ្រាន់តែអារម្មណ៍បងឆ្កួតមួយពេលទេគាត់សុំឧកាសជាលើកចុងក្រោយនិងមិនអោយកេីតឡើងទៀតទេខ្ញុំក៏បានផ្ដល់ឱកាសលើកចុងក្រោយអោយគាត់ម្តងទៀតស្អែកឡើងពួកយើងក៏បានទៅញាំអីជាមួយគ្នាពេលនោះគាត់យកចិត្តទុកដាក់និងខ្ញុំលេីសមុនធ្វើអោយខ្ញុំគិតថាប្រហែលវាមិនអីទេបេីតែដល់យប់ឡើងខ្ញុំឆាតទៅគាត់ក៏មិនតបខលទៅក៏មិនលើកខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ចាប់ផ្តើមប្លែកចិត្តមួយថ្ងៃក្រោយមកទៀតទើបខ្ញុំដឹងថាគាត់បានត្រូវគ្នាជាមួយសង្សារចាស់គាត់វិញខ្ញុំមិនខឹងគាត់ទេតែគ្រាន់តែមិនអស់ចិត្តហេតុអ្វីមិនបានមួយម៉ាត់សោះស្ងាត់ឈឹង
Your action is confusing me for some point, I’m fluttering but at the same times I wonder that’s how you act around others as well. You’re an introvert the same as I am. You’re simple but yet the coolest person I’ve ever met. I literally never had loved experience before so it’s really hard for me just to know how I feel, and it’s much harder to know yours. I like you so much dear <8 I really wish we are reciprocated but I’m too dumb in this kind of things.