Another lost battle

I build a dream to be free, to write my own story, to dominate my destiny. I lose my sleep fighting for victory, gather my energy to outrun difficulty. But fate has never favored me and luck has never served me. I know my tears and dedication and the struggle to reach my passion. But my ambition and expectation crush down to disappointment. Now I'm all broken. In dark moment, I'm getting away from the sky like I never ever gonna fly again. Will I discover my light and light up my dark night? Will all my trial someday win over all the fight? Maybe someday, I will reach the peak and claim my championship. Cus with new hope, my faith in me is reignited.

Feeling bottled up?

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To love of my life

sorry for asking you for take a break from you for awhile , but doesn't i stop loving you or i stop care about . I want to text you daily asking how was your day ? did you eat ? we both missunderstanding sometime , sorry for telling you that i'm tired , I do tired how to make thing right for you and it make myself feel so dump everytime we fight about that . i knew the world is so hard for you and i want to be your safe place enough that you can take a rest with me I hope you understand about that i gave you everything sorry for take care of me i'm love you still . I'm glad see you smile from a far . I MISS US

Little crushyyy

Hi Manil, I know you won’t be able to see this message anyway but I kinda have a little crush on you and I’m still insecure about my look also my personality. You kinda deserved a sunshine types more than the grumpy ones like me. :)

I’m not the one for her!

I have known her for almost a year who has a good attitude, strong and similar vibe to me. Recently there’s something in me told me that I’m not the one for her, I’m not good enough for her, i can’t take care of her for the rest of my life. Her last relationship hurt her so bad, but I was there to help her from day one. I don’t trust myself that I can go through all this things, I don’t want to see her in that kind of situation anymore, I don’t want her to lose herself again. But at the same time, there’s some part in me tell me she’s the person you have been looking for for a long time, she’s your type, she’s the girl you want to take care of. And now I don’t know what to do. It’s really hard for me

Don't lose yourself.

Sometimes you really love a person eventho they have done bad things to you and Sometimes you've been holding on to it for so long that you forgot yourself. That you've lost the value of your worth, I know it struggling sometimes to hold on to something that you are trying so hard, But if it hurts you, you also have to let it go. There's no point of holding on to it, it will only eat you up and keep you insecure. I am a guy who's badly devastated by a few person who did the same thing to me over and over. I'm the one who is trying to hard to keep things like before, eventho i know so damn well that it's not gonna work out for both of us. Coming home from work getting to talk to your favorite person, yet that person doesn't seem to care at all, cold replies, short text, late replies. I kept convincing myself that it's probably just one of her bad day. But that's when i realized that bad days doesn't goes on for 4 months straight. I tried talking about it, one week, ONE WEEK, everything is back to square one, cold replies, short text, late replies. That's when i started asking myself "What am i holding on for?", "Was it love?", "Was it that i've stayed with that person for so long that i can't live without them?", "Was it the time we spent together that i don't wanna let it all goes to waste?", "Was it to the point that staying with that person is apart of my habit?". Those are all the questions that keeps popping in my head. I've lost pieces of myself staying with that person without realizing it until it was too late for me and now I'm lost, i couldn't find myself anymore. I've lost myself trying to be with you.

Freedom

Being in a relationships mean to understand each other’s need, love, affection and the freedom they wanted. But sometimes I wanted you to understand that I also need your love and affection back. There are days where I just felt like I’m in love alone. Everybody is busy, and I tried to understand that. And yeah, sometimes I know you’re just fake busying, I knew about it but I just stay silent so that you can have your freedom. But I don’t get why the type of freedom you’re doing is just to go around and flirt others, following new people on sns, text with them while you’re just ignoring me, who patiently waiting for your text. Should I let you go?

Too sensitive and weak

I hate how I'm too soft and emotionally weak. I cry over things that normal people would just brush off and move on. Little things can make me feel down and once I'm down, I don't really know how to pick myself up. When I see something that hurts my feelings, I would think about it for several months. I've been spending way too long trying to move on from someone I've only known for a short period of time and doesn't even care about me. If the person happens to know about my feelings, they probably find me stupid and pathetic. It's also difficult for me to share these things with my friends because they would find me overly emotional because even I myself think so. But I just can't help it. Is there even a way to improve myself to be mentally strong like others? Cos I really admire those who can just brush things off and let go of things easily. I can't keep on being this way when I've entered adulthood for quite a few years already.

a message in the bottle, hope it gets to you.

Hi, we haven’t talked for awhile. You’ve been moving on with your new life while I am still stuck in the same place. The same place that used to have you here. You haven’t told me yet but I heard that it’s nearly your engagement day. Hope you’re doing well. I am indeed still care but it’s not my place to take care of you anymore. I had said “i love you” many times for the past months just in case you know...it would change your mind. From “the one” you told that no one will ever replace her place;

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