Kherng jit xD

I think I started to have a crush on my friend.

We’ve been hanging out together about 4 years now but he and I never think of anything more than friend. I like to tease him sometimes before about being in relationship but it doesn’t mean I have that kind of feeling with him and I think he feel annoyed about me teasing him but who care lol. For some reasons, I think he’s really hate me at some points because I’m kinda immature and of course annoying and always mad and yes he never ទ្រ me because why would he care if I’m mad? Lol. However, we both still talking and still friend. It just this recently (read the title), just maybe, let’s just put it like this. I don’t think he has feeling for me because he doesn’t really care about me and doesn’t really care to reply to my text for all these years only if he wants to. He probably chat with others because I used to caught him. Or he probably study. He’s smarter than me too. But well even if he also has feeling for me I’m not sure whether it’s possible for us to date too due to some reasons which also include my knowledge, I think, because I’m not as smart as him. And other reasons.

I miss you a lot

I miss the days that I drove you home, miss having you by my side, cuddling, as well as the long journey we had shared. It’s sad having to accept the fact that one of us had to part from each other’s in order for things to work out. You were a gf, best friend, and a mom. From someone once was your Antman 😔

A letter to the one that got away

You will never see this. I wish I could telepathize what I have always been hiding inside my heart to you right now. It is unbelievable that I lost you just like that. We created a lot beautiful memories together. You were my precious person. You gave me warmth. You gave me courage. You made me feel the luckiest. I was so proud to have you by my side. I was so happy. I still can’t accept the fact that you left me in the middle of the road after a very long way we had walked side by side. You left a heavy mark on me and now I have to put fences around it because I am scare to let someone get close to it. I really hope this footprint will fade away someday. Now, I am wondering. How beautiful and amazing it could have turned out if we were here together right now? I really want to see how strong and wise you could have become. I have always wanted to see the grownup version of you. We could have completed our bucket lists together. We could have had a great journey of adulthood together. Our precious moment could have been much more than this. Yet, at the end of the day, past should be left behind and life should go on. Perhaps, in the parallel universe, we are having the best moment right now. Maybe I will see you again in another life with no regrets like this. I guess, I will see you there. I hope to see you there. - owl

ស្ដាយក្រោយ

កាលពី2ឆ្នាំមុនខ្ញុំបានបែកគ្នាជាមួយសង្សារចាស់ខ្ញុំគឺដោយសារតែមូលហេតុថាចង់ឈ្នះរៀងខ្លួនម្នាក់ៗសុទ្ធតែខ្លាំងរៀងខ្លួនហើយពួកយើងបានប្រើពាក្យសំដីខ្លាំងៗដាក់គ្នាទៅវិញទៅមករហូតដល់គាត់សុំខ្ញុំបែកបន្ទាប់ពីពួកយើងបែកគ្នាតាំងពីថ្ងៃនោះរហូតមកដល់ពេលនេះខ្ញុំនៅតែស្រលាញ់គាត់ដូចថ្ងៃដែលខ្ញុំបានស្គាល់គាត់ដំបូងហើយខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថាស្ដាយក្រោយហើយបើសិនជាខ្ញុំចិត្តត្រជាក់នៅថ្ងៃនោះខ្ញុំនឹងមិនបាត់បង់គាត់ទេ

Don't lose yourself.

Sometimes you really love a person eventho they have done bad things to you and Sometimes you've been holding on to it for so long that you forgot yourself. That you've lost the value of your worth, I know it struggling sometimes to hold on to something that you are trying so hard, But if it hurts you, you also have to let it go. There's no point of holding on to it, it will only eat you up and keep you insecure. I am a guy who's badly devastated by a few person who did the same thing to me over and over. I'm the one who is trying to hard to keep things like before, eventho i know so damn well that it's not gonna work out for both of us. Coming home from work getting to talk to your favorite person, yet that person doesn't seem to care at all, cold replies, short text, late replies. I kept convincing myself that it's probably just one of her bad day. But that's when i realized that bad days doesn't goes on for 4 months straight. I tried talking about it, one week, ONE WEEK, everything is back to square one, cold replies, short text, late replies. That's when i started asking myself "What am i holding on for?", "Was it love?", "Was it that i've stayed with that person for so long that i can't live without them?", "Was it the time we spent together that i don't wanna let it all goes to waste?", "Was it to the point that staying with that person is apart of my habit?". Those are all the questions that keeps popping in my head. I've lost pieces of myself staying with that person without realizing it until it was too late for me and now I'm lost, i couldn't find myself anymore. I've lost myself trying to be with you.

2025-08-14

អារម្មណ៍ស្រឡាញ់

អារម្មណ៍ត្រូវគេស្រឡាញ់គឺល្អ តែអារម្មណ៍ដែលស្រឡាញ់គេគឺអារម្មណ៍មួយផ្សេងទៀតដែលពោរពេញទៅដោយការខ្វល់ខ្វាយ ការបារម្ភ ការហួងហែង តែក៏នៅតែជាអារម្មណ៍ល្អ មួយបែបផ្សេងពីអារម្មណ៍ដែលត្រូវគេស្រឡាញ់។ ខ្ញុំសប្បាយ និងពេញចិត្តជាមួយការស្រឡាញ់ដែលខ្ញុំផ្ដល់ឲ្យគាត់ ការស្រឡាញ់ពិតប្រាកដហើយជ្រាលជ្រៅ ច្បាស់លាស់ ចង់ឲ្យអនាគតខ្ញុំមានគាត់ គាត់ក៏មានខ្ញុំ ពួកយើងស្រឡាញ់គ្នា មើលថែគ្នារហូតទៅ។ ខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថាខ្លួនឯងសំណាង ព្រោះបានស្រឡាញ់និងផ្ដល់ក្ដីសុខឲ្យមនុស្សម្នាក់ដោយអស់ពីចិត្ត មិនចាំបាច់លាក់បាំង មិនចង់ចាញ់ឈ្នះ។ និយាយច្រើនហើយ តែគ្រាន់តែចង់ប្រាប់អ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាថា ក្នុងមួយជីវិត គួរសាកបើកចិត្តទទួលអារម្មណ៍ស្រឡាញ់គេ កុំខ្មាសអ្នកដទៃថាយើងងប់ងល់នឹងស្នេហាអី ព្រោះអារម្មណ៍នេះជាអារម្មណ៍ពិសេស មានន័យជ្រាលជ្រៅ។ To be loved is one thing. To be able to give that feeling to someone else is another. It's neither an embarrassment or a punishment. It's a feeling that should be cherished. I hope you all will be able to find someone who loves you and especially, find the feeling of loving someone truly. Love has no limits <3

Our story

Even the title is “ Our Story “ but you have no idea about it. I wrote it my own , you are the main lead who, the main actress which is me fell in love with every piece of mine whereas you don’t know you are the main lead who the main actress adore so much. No matter how cold or heartless you’ve been to her. You mean a lot to her and for you , we just mean to meet. I was a barely page in your book but you filled every space in mine. This is the end of the story that never start but here I am still admiring you from far apart.

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