Suicidal thought

It comes again...that thought and why its keep whisper in my ear and keeping running in my brain telling me i should die so everything will be fine? Why is it me? Why am i being like this?

Feeling bottled up?

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2025-08-14

BACII

A few days more till bacII and I’m here to wish you all the best bcs we don’t talk anymore… Don’t over-stressed and don’t overthinking! Goodluck for the upcoming exam!!! I believe that u can do it. No matter what grade you get, I will always be proud of you. If you need helps, pls rmb that I’ll always be right by your side so don’t hesitate to text me. My inbox is 24/7 opened for you. <3

2025-08-14

Test

test

2025-08-14

Want to get away

It’s 1am now. But my parents still fighting

2025-08-14

The peace I hadn’t found

ហេតុអីប៉ានិងម៉ាក់គិតថារឿងរបស់ពួកគាត់នឹងមិនប៉ះពាល់ដល់កូនៗ នៅពេលកូនត្រូវគេងយំដោយសាររឿងរ៉ាវទាំងអស់នោះ ដោយរាល់ជម្លោះសម្លាប់ទឹកចិត្តរបស់កូនដែលចង់រស់នៅស្ងាត់ស្ងៀម ទោះគ្មានក្តីសុខពិតប្រាកដក៏មិនចាំបាច់ឮការស្រែកទៅវិញទៅមក…កូននៅកណ្តាលពិបាកសម្រេចចិត្តណាស់ កូនពិតជាអត់ដឹងគ្រប់ជ្រុងនៃរឿងនីមួយៗទេ…កូននៅខាងណា សូមកុំបន្ទោសកូន.. កូនមានអារម្មណ៍ថាហត់ណាស់ រងសម្ពាធណាស់ ចង់នៅស្ងប់ស្ងៀម។ ប៉ាម៉ាក់ និងគ្រប់គ្នាប្រាប់កូនកុំអោយគិត តែនៅជាមួយគ្នាក្រោមដំបូលផ្ទះតែមួយ ជួបប្រទះឮផ្ទាល់ខ្លាំងៗ អោយកូនធ្វើមិនឃើញ មិនឮយ៉ាងដូចម្តេច…But I’m always grateful and thankful for everything. Tried to not think about it for days, weeks and years. Yet I’ve come to stressed myself to the point I lose interest in things I find interesting and enthusiastic for years. The longing for peace, and happiness continues but diminishes in chances too.

2025-08-14

A day my heart torn into pieces.

Your last text! Hi I have something to say.... I want to make something clear about something that I assume we both know.... i saw your video and i am pretty sure that I am the one who cause you to become like this... i am so sorry if the action that i express may lead to your wrong interpretation, that on my side. I want to make things clear as soon as I realize you don't think me just a friend, however it might ruin our friendship which i am not looking forward to.... you are a great person you deserve someone that truly for you, you don't need to wish that you were others.. you are great the way you are. You might not meet the one yet. But for a person like you, you deserve this whole world and someone that you truly deserve. I felt really guilty to be honest that we came to this point that you are suffering, effecting you mentally which I have never intended to..., i should have told you earlier than this... sorry but we could be no more than friends. If you don't mind I would be prefer if we remain just like before. I can not stand to see someone suffering because of me. this might hurt now but hopes it fade away as time goes by. Hope you understand and i hope i made things clear for both of our sides. Thank you for being the best supporter, helper, friends and adviser.

2025-08-14

Her.

One of the hardest things that I’m doing right now is letting go of a person whom I never thought I would do. It’s the best for myself to be able to heal. I wrote my stories here probably a few times of how I love that person but in the end we’re just friends. I still have feelings for her and I don’t think I would ever lose those feelings, but the thing is I’m moving forward. I don’t stay in the same old place with the wonderful/painful memories. Honestly, she’s the first person that I’ve loved this much and I even told her that. Still, I need to accept the fact that it’s not gonna work and our connection can only be “best friend”. She told me that she met someone and she kinda loves that him too. So yeah. Sometimes you miss the memories and the times that you had spent with them but not the person themselves.

2025-08-14

Regret

I lost my virgin at the age 21 years old. Do u think it is so fast? And How do all of u guys think of me? ភ្លើតភ្លើន? សប្បាយភ្លេចខ្លួន? ខុសប្រពៃណី?I lost it to my bf and he never think about future with me. Emmmm! Now I feel like I dont want anyone anymore beside building myself to be strong and I am sorry for my family that I am not a good daughter! Really sorry.

2025-08-14

Appreciate

"ការស្រលាញ់ដែរចេញពីចិត្ត គឺជាអារម្មណ៍នៃការផ្តល់អោយ ផ្តល់អោយដោយចេញពីចិត្តដោយមិនមានការទាមទារពីភាគគីម្ខាងទៀតទេ ដូចជាការគោរព ការទុក្ខចិត្ត ការបារម្ភ... " ទាំងនេះគឺជាពាក្យដែរខ្ងុំនិយាយប្រាប់ទៅ មនុស្សម្នាក់ដែរសួរខ្ងុំថា "what is love". ទោះបីជាពេលនេះពួកយើងលែងជាអ្វីនឹងគ្នា ប៉ុន្តែការផ្ដល់ឱ្យរបស់ខ្ញុំចំពោះអ្នកនៅតែមាន ខ្ញុំមិនដែលខឹង ស្អប់ រឺក៏គុំគួនអ្នកឡើយទោះបីជាអ្នកដៀមដាមថាអោយខ្ងុំតាមរយះ status share or story ដោយការយល់ច្រលំលើទង្វើ និងបំណងរបស់ខ្ងុំក៏ដោយ. បើសួរថាតើនៅអាណិត ស្រលាញ់ទេ អារម្មណ៍នេះនៅតែមាន តែខ្ងុំមិនអាចបកក្រោយទេ ព្រោះចង់ឃើញអ្នកនៅជាមួយមនុស្សដែរល្អជាងខ្ងុំ ចំពោះខ្ងុំបានត្រឹមធ្វើជាសង្សារ និងបានលឺពាក្យថា I feel love when I'm with you and I never feel this with anyone before គឺគ្រប់គ្រាន់ហើយ. អ្នកប្រហែលជាគិតថាខ្ងុំអត់ដែរស្រលាញ់អ្នកទេបានជាខ្ងុំកាត់ចិត្តបានលឿនយ៉ាងនេះ ប៉ុន្តែផ្ទុយទៅវិញខ្ងុំគ្រាន់តែទទួលការពិតថាពួកយើងមិនអាចនៅជាមួយគ្នាបាន រួចទទួលយកការឈឺចាប់ទាំងអស់ ហើយក៏រំសាយម្តងបន្តិចៗតាមតែអាចធ្វើបាន បែបនេះហើយបានជាអារម្មណ៍របស់ខ្ងុំមិននៅជាប់ជុំពាក់នឹងអតីតកាល